now

why do i persist? im uncomfortable in several ways and was highly ambivalent to start with. i need comfort adbventure is it the noise? the feeling of being an idiot? the aimless and apparentlu futile nature of my current activith? is it coming from outside me and i just absor it? i know im dying for music and every time i look its not around.

cats and crows fire iced beneath a veil of fortune
i need i need but what?
where is the next road? why a pull yet no direction? what am i wanting?